“the only way you can improve, is to accept that you will need to take little steps backwards in order to make bigger strides forward.” – Andre the trainer
i do not exactly know if it was because my muscles were starting to feel the burn and were protesting after three months of relative physical inactivity, or perhaps it was because i was not able to catch enough sleep the night before, or maybe it had to do with the news that two of my players got into a motorcycle accident. Whatever the reason was, when i got to the gym and started doing my cardio workouts, i was just not feeling up to par.
the first thing i noticed was that i was having a hard time getting my heart rate into optimal level. i was just peaking at a heart rate of 139 even after 15 minutes on the exercise bike instead of the regular 147. the second noticeable thing was that even though i was not fatigued, there seemed to be more strain on my muscles, it was as if my mind was telling me it was ok to keep going but my body was telling me to slow down.
noticing from the computer monitor that my heart rate was not up to snuff, Andre comes over as i struggle on the cross trainer machine. I started doubting myself, can i do this? can i really hit my targets realistically speaking? can my knee take this sort of punishment? or should i wait until after surgery?
i tell him my body seems not to be cooperating with my mind at the moment but apparently he has a different take on the issue.
“its not your body that’s hitting the wall. it’s all mental.perhaps when you came in here today, you were not mentally prepared. it could be that you are stressing over something, or that your mind might be taking over and telling your muscles that they are tired.”
after another 15 minutes which included 3 minutes of hell on the stepmaster machine, i move on to the weights machines all through the circuit i struggle to keep my focus and finish my reps. no chance in hell. I limp through and finish my routine feeling low and dejected. i know i should be expecting days like today can come and go, that its a regular part of working out, hell its a regular part of life. you win some you lose some.
i guess at this stage, i wanna keep winning and not lose too many battles on my quest to take it all back.