I havent really had a scare in a while. I guess most of the time, i turn a blind eye to whatever aches or pains im having just so i can be your superman.
Well.. not really turn a blind eye. I stress out a lot.. in private. I guess my stress management needs more work huh?
So now im lying on this hospital bed in the ICU foe observation.. guess daddy’s heart wanted a little attention. Now the doc is aaying things like Angiogram and Angina.. and frankly for the very first time im really scared.
Im scared of not being there for you. Scared that if something happens.. i might not be able to watch you score your first basket.. or tour first dance.. or pick you up when you both feel down.
But thats the future.. riggt now im really scared of not being able to continue doing what we always do. Horse around.. get ice cream go for walks.. bike rides.. piggy back rides… whoosh!
Im askong my heart to be stronger tho. Because i wanna grow hell of a lot more older with mom and watch you two blossom.
Im thanking my heart for the wake up call. I love you so so so so much and im crying coz i want nothing than to hold you all in my arms as tight as i possibly can.
I love you. And i will see you and hug you tomorrow.